I graduated in 2018 and commenced a job the place formally I’m a freelancer however in actuality 99% of my work comes from one particular person. I file my hours and invoice my shopper for them, and we have now an unofficial settlement that I’ll make myself accessible to work X variety of hours day by day for him, and in return he offers me with fairly regular work, and there’s virtually all the time the choice so as to add hours if I’ve the time and need to make the additional cash. Typically this association has labored out fairly properly. He’s an amazing man to work for, versatile, respectful, thoughtful, and he pays a really beneficiant hourly fee.
Nonetheless, I discover it unattainable to focus whereas working from house anymore. Actually, I used to be by no means nice at it, however I used to have extra time accessible (I’ve since change into mother to a number of younger children, however I do have youngster care whereas I’m working). I really feel like a lazy slob who doesn’t have the essential self-discipline to take a seat down and work and, worse, ungrateful, as a result of a lot about my job is good, particularly as a mother to small children — the flexibleness, specifically. The factor is, I’m not usually lazy. I understand how to work arduous, have accomplished so prior to now, and proceed to take action in different areas of my life. However I discover it unattainable to concentrate on work throughout the hours I put aside for it. I attempt to be very sincere in reporting my hours, and if I get distracted and find yourself shopping the online, I all the time pause my clock. This implies I find yourself not having sufficient reportable hours, my boss retains pressuring me to work extra due to my unofficial dedication to put aside a sure variety of hours for him, and I’m not incomes as a lot as I should be — and could possibly be.
I’ve tried to make this work. I shared with my boss that I used to be discovering the work-from-home setup very distracting and tough. He was sympathetic however his complete workforce is distant; there isn’t a workplace to convey me into. He agreed to up my hourly pay so I may discover a shared workspace to affix, however I haven’t been capable of finding something remotely appropriate the place I reside.
Am I being a lazy slacker who ought to get her grownup collectively, understand how fortunate I’m to have such job, and in some way develop extra self-discipline. Or can or not it’s that some persons are simply not minimize out for distant work and I ought to actually be in search of a special job in an workplace setting, though it would imply much less flexibility and doubtless a barely decrease hourly fee?